a smile and a binky

A smile. A simple, simple smile. Could you imagine learning how to smile for the first time? What an organic natural thing for us as humans to learn. I am not capable of teaching my son such a unique, special talent that will stick with him for the rest of his life. He was born with this ability and he taught himself to move the correct muscles in his face to cause such joy to be apparent on his face. I love watching him smile. It makes waking up at 3:30am completely worth it. Do you see how his eyes smile? I hope he never loses the joy that he has on his face.



A friend of mine gave me a book that she wrote called "Days of Whine and Noses"....a book for the "tuckered out" mom. During a few free moments that I had I read the chapter that's all about binkies. Fortunately for me, thus far in my motherhood journey of 3 weeks and 3 days, Isaiah doesn't need his binky. I give it to him when he has the freakish urge to suck and that's it. But I'm getting way off in what I wanted to say. In this chapter about "binkies," Lisa talks about how its a comfort measure for the baby. And then she poses the question, what's mommy's comfort measure? What did I do before baby to help me relax? She reminds us mommies how important it is to find what relaxes us and what makes us happy and do it. I don't know if I have something that I do that makes me happy. I enjoy reading, being creative, making music, watching TV, hanging with friends...but I've never really done anything on a consistent basis that makes me go 'ahhh.' I guess I need to find a hobby. A good one that I can stick with and not blow off mid way through. So here's to finding a hobby whatever it may be so that I have my own binky to help me relax.

screaming child and grey's anatomy

I'm not sure how good I'll be at this whole blog thing, but I've decided to give it a try. Why would I not be at good at this? Well, for starters the screaming baby in the background makes it really hard to concentrate on anything. All I can think about is: must stop baby from crying. But, with Daddy home for a few more moments, I'll attempt to put these jumbled thoughts down and hope that my 5 hours of rest from last night will make sense on paper...even though I'm typing on a computer.

I'm an avid Grey's Anatomy follower. I've been hooked on the show really from the beginning and now that I am home for the summer with Isaiah, there are 3 episodes on every day on Lifetime. yay. :) But one of the BEST episodes is when Derek and Meredith FINALLY get back together and she's standing outside his trailer and she's mapped out their whole house in candles. But, she says something that struck such a chord with me. She says something along the lines of: we can be ordinary people by ourselves or live to be extraordinary together. I want to be extraordinary. The kind of person that leaves a legit impact. Even if it just impacts my little baby boy and my husband....I want them to remember me as being extraordinary. So, I'm going to have to figure that out on how I can live such a life. Wish me luck and maybe I'll be somewhat inspiring to you on learning how to live an extraordinary life.